In case you guys didn't know, I've got
bipolar disorder.
If you want a basic sum up of being bipolar, well...
It's having two extremes in mood with little middle ground. And honestly, the extremes I depicted in the pic aren't at all extreme enough.
You may think that there's no way something bad can come from being really happy. You'd be wrong. The euphoria half is far FAR more radical than shown above and can be quite dangerous. You spend WAY too much money and make really REALLY poor decisions*... -.-
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Trust me... >_>;
Then there's the other extreme.
The one that always last far longer than the deliriously peppy side.
The side where
Mr. Depress rides on your back slowly weighing you down.
But bipolar isn't impossible to work with. Some medications can go a long way to handle it. They help to build bridges over that crack and thus give you a stabler middle ground.
Still though, they can't do everything alone.
You still need to monitor your mood and beware of possible triggers to know* when you may be having/on the verge of having an episode. Then you can take steps to manage and/or prevent them.
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After all, knowing is half the battle.
However, it can be difficult to take those steps, especially with a depressive episode and during this time* of year.
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That is, if you're in the winter season. So all you peeps in the southern hemisphere... enjoy your summer! D:
If you're like me, you have trouble reaching out. Not because you're anti-social but rather because you always feel like you'd just be bothering other people with your petty crap*. And so you do nothing but sit on it. By yourself†.
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Mind you, it is in no way "petty crap". You're just seeing it that way.
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Getting a puppy can help a lot though. :)
Doing nothing creates a pretty vicious downward spiral too.
• You feel bad.
• Which makes you withdraw.
• Which makes you feel worse.
• Which makes you withdraw more...
But, though you may want to, you don't.
Instead, hopefully, you realize what's going on and do something to fight it. Whether it's calling somebody, going outside, having a quick bit of exercise, or even venting your scrambled thoughts and feelings by writing them out. Any and/or all these can help. So really, just do something.
Because remember, these episodes, whether manic or depressive, are
serious business*.
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Srs bsns. ._.
For those who may be wondering, I personally have been diagnosed and suffer from
Bipolar I.