Monday, December 8, 2014

A long standoff with depression.

If you've been reading my last several post you might have noticed a common theme.

I've been fighting/struggling/dealing with depression.


I'm depressed.


Have been for about three years now.




 


Seriously Mr. Depress and I have been hanging out far too long.

A lot has happened over the passed three years.

I've had a few times where I thought I was on the rise and coming out of it, but things happened and I fell flat.

Life and the future just started to feel "bleh" and I basically became "bleh" with it.


It got deep. It got dark. I lost all feelings. I was ready to fade out.

Unfortunately I haven't though.*


*I still have some moments where I'd really rather not drag on any more. That makes it unfortunate.

I've started posting again because I thought it might help, even if no one is really reading any more.

And it has, at least I think. It's hard to tell, but at least I'm doing something. =\


Other than this and working around my home, I mostly just play video games lately...




After they stop working (distracting me from and/or masking/dulling my depression) I force myself to do something else.

Mostly writing, some artwork, or any other project I can fake up the motivation for.

Recently, it's been these post.

Also I get pretty hard on myself about it.




As well as anything else I can find to be critical about...



So that's just where I've been at currently.

Expect more post about depression, video games, and anything else I feel like. ._.

Another well known comic blogger person made some excellent post about depression which did make feel not quite as alone.
They can be read here: Adventures in Depression & Depression Part Two

2 comments:

  1. Hey, just letting you know that somebody is still following this site.

    And even though I've never had a lasting period of serious depression, I've certainly had some nights where I felt like I was hitting a brick wall, so I can somewhat relate to how it must feel.

    I really hope you'll get better real soon!

    ReplyDelete
  2. @Anonymous:
    Thanks mate, appreciate it.

    ReplyDelete